You’ve Lost Me

How could you do this to me


I trusted you


I fucking trusted you


With everything I had


I wasn't enough


Why wasn't I enough


What did I do


Did I drive you to this


What was lacking in me


What did I do


Why did you have to go and do this


"Bad self control"?


Was I not on your mind?


We must have been talking at the same time


How could you


Why


Why did you have to go and do this


I knew


I knew


I knew


But I kept denying


Thinking


This time your different


Cuz you said


You said


I was different to you


You loved me


I remember 
I remember what you said …


What happened


When you got me was that all you wanted


Just to have me


And now you don't want me anymore


Dammit!


Why’d you do this to us


All this time


All this time..


I can't trust you


I can never trust you again


You only have yourself to blame


I can't do this


Not anymore


I'm done


The love...


The love is gone


I'm done


You've lost me 


(4/6/11)

I’m With You

I'm with you


Finally I'm with you


I'm actually happy


I think


I think I'm happy


I'm sure I'm happy


But


But it’s weird


I’ve never felt like this before


I love you I know I do


I always have


You just never knew


I never said


I never told


Cuz I knew


I knew you loved me too


To speak the truth


To tell you the truth right now


I was scared


Scared that when you got to know me


When I let you love me


When you knew the real me


You might not like what u see


You might want out


You might want to leave


I couldn’t


Handle that


I can't handle it


If you do that


I’ve let you in though


I love you


I told you


You told me


But everyday


I'm scared


Scared you’ll leave


You said you wanna know my life


I'm scared if you do


You’ll see me in a new light


You might not love me the same


You might just fall out of love with me


I'm scared that that will happen


Don't do that to me


I love you


I trust you


Don't hurt me like I hurt you


Please don't


Please don't


I'm with you


I love you


I truly do


(29/5/11)

What If

What if this is all a lie
What if this is all an act
I don't think
I don't think I'll be able to handle that
You pulled me in
You got me wrapped up
In your words
Your makin me believe
Your makin me dream
I don't like it
I don't like it at all
How can I trust
How can I trust everything you say to me so blindly
Where's my head at
Where’d my heart go
You said it yourself
You already know
I'm feeling so lost
But sometimes I'm found
You make my head just spin
And spin and spin around
I can't help it
What you do to me
It’s so magical
So magical yet it hurts
It hurts so much
Cuts me deep
You have no idea what your doin to me
Your cutting me
Making me bleed
But then you heal me
How is it
How is it you do all that
How is it one person can do so much
Can mean so much
I know I'm going to lose you
One day you’ll be gone
I'm so scared
So scared
I'll be gone with you
It hurts
It hurts so bad
To think
To know
You hurt me so bad
I think
I think I have to let you go..
(16/5/11)